song: thank you
- Mar 20, 2024
- 5 min read
we are at the last song of this journey, and wow, what a time it has been, I think closing off with this song makes this really interesting, because for myself, I have been through so many different experiences and seasons of life since I've written this song.
Thank You is a song that holds a space for the sentiments and gratitude you have for dear friends and family, it's a reflection on the support and love you've received, and it's an indirect message of gratitude and love when the song repeats "you don't know how much you mean to me".
As someone who is generally open and comfortable with expressing gratitude and love, I find it funny that I use a closed off sentence like "you don't know how much you mean to me" because it sort of implies either that I have never expressed that love and gratitude or I'm too shy or the moment has never been right. And although it seems like a closed off sentence, I also think, it could be there's so much depth to what a person could mean to you.
For myself, I think that although I've expressed my gratitude and love, I think there will always be this deeper sense of connection and meaningfulness, or a fondness that I will have for someone, and the how much part could vary, it could something as simple as cherishing the little things like going out for bubble tea, or seeing our friendship grow over time, seeing someone grow emotionally and challenge themselves. No matter how small or big, these little things could matter to someone more than you could ever know.
I think the meaning that we build for those we love, the things we notice and keepsake, the atmosphere and the feelings, yes cherish them within you, and ALSO remember to share that love, breathe in the love and breathe out the love towards others too.
I'm not sure if I'm making much sense, but I feel like this song is a mixture of a self-reflection as well as a homage to those who have supported me. I remember sending this song as a gratitude gift for friendships I've made over the past few years via soundcloud with a wholesome note in the description.
And I think my wholesome note kind of summarizes what this song holds a space for:
To the wonderful person reading this:
You've received this song because you actually don't know how much you mean to me, even if we do or do not see each other that often. Whether it is a new or old friend or a rekindled friendship that comes and goes, I cannot fathom to tell you how much I love you and how much you have done for me this year and wherever our history lies. So as you listen, feel free to follow along with the words I picked carefully to tell you how much you mean to me.
Here's to more crazy adventures together <3 Happy almost end of the year. Or whenever it is.I love you always.Thank you.
Sometimes I wonder if I come off too strong and express too deeply, love is such a heavy word and an affectionate one too. This song was written in December of 2019, and I believe these little ment or note was written around the same time. And when I think of this time 2019, 5 years ago, there were some turbulent seasons with my physical well-being and lots of waves that I had to ride. I had also met some friends at that time and grown close with them too. So with the support systems that I had amongst friends, family and chosen family, this song was born out of those experiences.
I don't have a big recollection of all the details, I just know that this song held a space for a season where I had a lot of support. And if I think of the certain references of lyrics and the specific people I thought of, unfortunately our seasons have passed and our paths no longer walk together. So the current me, the present me as I sing this and look back at it, there's this mixed feeling again.
I am utmost blessed and grateful for those times and also I am still processing the many tangled pieces that happened 2019 onwards. There is no reason to be bitter, it's just funny to see how much meaning I had placed on the support I received and now I am learning how to support myself better and build my own space.
And I think it's important for me to say we all do the best we can with the information that we had at the time, so when I look at it now with 5 more years of experience, I laugh not at the lack of experience I had, but at how much things have changed. There's like this irony almost, not that I was too naive, but ah that was a past version of me and now I think I've outgrown it and am something different.
Because when I look at the lyrics, How do I show you and How do I tell you that you have saved me and I know that sounds a little crazy, but you don't know how much you mean to me
That's at the beginning of the song and it's already pretty intense? Because saved is a strong word and up to interpretation, I really mean it as saved in the little ways, like spending time to talk with me, holding space, and more. Which is why the follow up like I know that sounds a little crazy, because it's like the people we have around us, some could drain us and some could energize us and some are neutral or comforting. Feeling saved by a safe space and energy is so valuable in any kind of relationship.
Another set of lyrics that I think of the most is how I used the seasons as a metaphor for how I was really doing.
The seasons are passing
and I feel like it's just spring and autumn
and then the winter blues
yes they stay with me
I have such a vivid memory of writing this lyric, trying to depict the seasons as an emotion, where I had felt no summer like the sunny days and fun, and that throughout the seasons passing, the winter blues had always stayed with me
With the other verses that reference ways I was supported whether through cute little words or being with me 100%, I am forever grateful and have also seen how other people show up in different ways and how I can too.
Then right at the end of this song, the last 2 verses and then chorus is my hopes and message for others.
I'm always sending love and support
Oh whatever you need
I am here for you
love you always
Thank you for meeting me
wherever I'm at
every day
and every step of our paths
thank you
thank you
And this part of the song is the one part I always stand by, and hope to fufill for all my relationships and connections whether big or small, short term or long term, I am just forever grateful for the kindness and hope to always send it back tenfold.
With this, I feel like thank you is a song that compiles the reflection of count your stars, good ol' times, by our lakeside, and sunshine baby.
i invite you to take a moment and reflect:
How do you share and express your gratitude to others? Is there anyone you'd like to say "thank you for meeting me wherever I'm at, every day, and every step of our paths" and want to send some love too?
As this is the last song and reflection for this journey, I'd like to express my gratitude for your presence here.
if you have reached this far, thank you so much for reading and holding a space with me.
Take care always,
MAP2
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