what really is this space? a capstone project... a journey... and more
- Jan 20, 2024
- 3 min read
Updated: Feb 7, 2024
In September and at the end of October, I was very very scared to start this capstone project. In that post, I wrote about the worries I had going into this project, and what my intentions were for this space.
now that I am a little more experienced, maybe 6 weeks into now, and almost halfway through it, I think it deserves more of an explanation, a bit more context. Funny enough, I'm doing a mid-way introduction of what this project is? Or what fully ignited this project to be what it is, and what the hopes and dreams are for it.
I highly encourage you to read my "scared to start" post from October 31, 2023, because it really highlights the rawness of my thought processes and vulnerability to what this project is.
And as I reread back on it, nothing has really changed for what this project stands for... and the journey I'm going through, it just feels like I am lacking community, and am looking for more connection. It really is a question of how and why. What more can I do or what can I do less of? What can I include?
And this in itself is also hard to write, and hard to be vulnerable with. I somewhat feel like I am failing a bit. Which is a hard standard and expectation to put on myself, so how can I soften it?
A part of me started to improvise and sing a melody about what this project is, and I'm going to explore it a bit more. I'm going to see if I can make a little jingle song improvisation about my project, so that I'm able to introduce it with more context, that this is a space I'm trying to build, to invite and find others who can relate and find connection through my moments as pieces of music, art and photos.
Through sharing my own vulnerability and healing, can I share a space with others to connect and show up the best way they can, so they can try making experiencing their own moments as pieces of music, art and photos.
--- insert me improvising for a bit and coming back afterwards
okay! so this is after many takes of my little jingle intro improvisation, it took about 20 takes, so my first introductory line: "it's weighed on my mind, that I'm halfway, this journey has been a little sideways" is the original melody, I had started singing while doing laundry. And it kind of evolved!
I just played around a bit, while singing and reading my own blog post, and I'm honestly, I feel lighter, that I am introducing my project, through singing and improvisation. I'll let the improvisation speak for me. I'm happy with it and feel a bit better having an informal and formal introduction or project about video.
Truly it really is how can we share moments as pieces of music, art and photos for our well-being and healing? How can we hold a space and connect with each other through this.
---- it's the next day, I also made a little infographic for it, so I'll update my website's home page most likely, and also put the main video there!
You can also check out the intro post on my Instagram account, I post more creative moments there, like my weekly spreads, improvisations and daily stories.
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