song: found myself tangled
- Dec 1, 2023
- 4 min read
Updated: Dec 8, 2023
found myself tangled is an original that I made this year
this song is very personal and hits home for the fact that
we are always trying to find answers
always trying to find ways to improve
always trying to figure ourselves out
always trying to make it through
and it does get overwhelming
it's alot
and it's an on-going journey
life-long learning
and all the inner turmoil in between
this song touches my heart as I wrote it thinking of three other individuals in my life and my own healing journey too
the opening line i've found myself tangled, at the seams, so much to unravel within me
was brought to life after having a very long and deep conversation with a colleague of mine
our friendship deepened after speaking for hours, holding a space for each other, and I guess what we found was a collective sense of suffering and healing, a connection
so this song is written primarily in thought of my colleague who is now, a very close friend of mine. we are surviving and vibing the best we can,
my friend, let's keep on healing and unpacking our boxes, one box at a time.
the other two individuals I thought of, one is an online best friend whom inspires and
reminds me to be soft and kind to yourself as your best looks different everyday
To me, this is important because you really do have to meet yourself where you're at and ask yourself what do you need, because it 100% of the time, leads to burn out, some kind of stress, lack of sleep and it's not sustainable in the long run
And then, the last individual I thought of while making this song, is a dear friend of mine, who I care alot for and I'd like for this person to know, there is no need to run this train with little to no brakes, and I understand all of these expectations and messages we place upon ourselves:
you need to be working hard
you'll never be enough
look at you wasting your time
These are hard things to break out of, but I've seen our progress and I hope we can be softer and gentler to ourselves, it doesn't have to be all we know
it can be
I'm showing up the best I can today
This is what I can give and I am honouring where I'm at
I am here, I am present and I am enough.
When I think more about it, this song definitely took some time, I believe I started in late january, but had finished it around May possibly? And it was because I didn't know what I wanted to talk about in the second verse...
When I look at the format of this song, or the story that I'm sharing....
It starts with the chorus, we're tangled and there's alot to unravel and figure out
first verses: simple positive messages are sometimes not helpful, i'm still answering all these questions
chorus: once again, we're here again, tangled, knowing we have to unpack
second verse: how have we been going? are you living moderately and sustainably? have you been speaking kindly and gently? what have I been telling myself? what do I need to unlearn, allow and not allow in my space ?
And now, the most impactful part of this song for me is the ending chorus, my closing ment.
i've found myself tangled at the seams, so much to unravel with me
And here I am trying to breathe,through all of this moments, to always love me.
I think this song is an extension of build a space and pays homage to the fact that doing the work does get messy and we do find ourselves tangled, it's the effort being put in I'm trying to build a space, fill it with love, find my grace from who I was
and yes, in every attempt to build a space, I have found myself tangled at the seams, so much to unravel with me , we are no strangers to our own suffering, no matter how big or small, significant or insignificant, if it means something to you, we are tangled in little ways and try to make sense of it
so in honour of our journeys of unravelling, I invite you to take a moment and reflect:
What is something you have been unravelling? What do you hope for yourself after untangling it?
if you're comfortable doing so, feel free to share your thoughts in the comments, much love.
I think something I've been unravelling, are some big, really big self-doubt thoughts and a tendency to freeze or be hesistant to start or continue? And this project is challenging me alot. Even thinking about it, makes me feel doubtful or undervaluing myself?
So as I do this project, I am untangling this self-limiting belief and hoping to grow in my belief and courage to share my work, share my story and see this through.
next week, I will be sharing another creative prompt to feel where I'll take the reflection prompt and make a little art or journalling exercise out of it, that you could try yourself too!
I did do it for build a space, so if you'd like to check it out, click here.
this space is open for you to share what you thought and felt from the song or this reflection <3
if you have reached this far, thank you so much for reading and holding a space with me.
Take care always
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